New Year, New Opportunities!

Happy New Year to all the viewers who read this blog. I’m hopefully going to start a new aveneu in school, which will be awesome!!! And this program is strictly online, which is different for me. Never ever pursued that avenue before, never even considered it at all. Now I am. 🙂

The program I’m seeking interest in is a part-time study program, called Nursing Unit Clerk. I’m really excited to see what this avenue brings for me! I’m so excited for this new avenue of a Faithful First for me. So stoked!!!

I started looking into this avenue, thanks to a PSW who helps me on Wednesday, and Thursday evenings. She mentioned something about taking a course for Medical Terminology, considering I know a lot already, due to being surrounded by medical cases all my life, so I looked into it, and that’s where I found this program, and the medical Terminology course is a part of it, so isn’t that just awesome!!!

So, thanks to that, I’m entering a challenge at full force. Welcome to another Faithful First!!! So happy!!

Continued Christmas fun!!!

Written on December 24, 2018

So, still spending time with family, and now it’s Christmas Eve. Going to probably see more family after supper, which will be nice, since the last time I saw them was Thanksgiving. I’m so excited!!! Spending time with family always makes my Christmas, each year… especially this, and last year.

Christmas morning still had one tradition the same, we woke up Christmas morning to the usual Christmas morning tradition, eggs, bacon and toast. I just had the bacon and toast, and both were delicious.

After breakfast, we got ready and headed over to see my boyfriend’s grandparents, whom in my heart, I consider them my own. We spent a bit of time there before heading back to continue with the preparations of Christmas dinner.

Presents were opened before dinner this year, to make sure everyone was going to be there. Family time works  better when family can actually be there. 🙂
For gifts I got:
-Hair stuff (scrunchies, burettes etc.), and

The final event on Christmas day was the huge feast. I ate turkey with gravy, mashed potatoes and carrots, along with a dinner roll. Oh my goodness, so good!!! Yum!!! I also had a homemade banana muffin for dessert, a very good idea to round out the meal.

All in all, a very well rounded Christmas, I say!

Home for Christmas Again!!!

I’m so excited that I could actually be around family I absolutely adore for the holidays again.  Due to my ups and downs with my hip, I wasn’t sure I’d be able to make it. As I sit at the kitchen table, looking out the balcony window at the backyard, I feel so wrapped up with warmth of a home and a family.

I’m so glad that I am surrounded by awesome traditions, little nephews, and Christmas chaos. That’s the joy of this time of year, especially when you feel like you belong. These are positive memories to remember and probably scrapbook, that is, if I have enough pictures for it. 🙂

Boyfriend’s family is my family. I have traditions now!!! No more being alone for Christmas anymore. I’d scoop up all the lonely people on Christmas and bring them here, to be surrounded by people and the craziness of Christmas.

F – Fun times around the holidays.
A – Amazing traditions that stick with you until the next year.
M – Memories made.
I – Individuals come, individuals go.
L – Love surrounds everyone, like a blanket.
Y – Years of family, from now on.

That’s what they mean to me, and this time with them. I never like to leave, but I know now, as long as it can happen, it will happen again.

Newest Album of The Willis Clan – Top 5 Favourites

Hello all!!!

This is my first blog from my knew website, which is absolutely awesome!! I’m deciding to do my top 5 favourites of The Willis Clan‘s new album, Speak My Mind. I will post the lyrics as well as the song itself to listen to.

5 – How Much of Me is You – Lyrics


   A little kid growing up

   Interested in music

   This is something you should learn

   Cuz dad says you’ll use it

   So focus hard and concentrate

   And put in your time

   The life will be worth the wait

   This is your mountain to climb


   I’m standing on a stage now

   Shaking scared to death

   Excited where this life might lead

   And I can’t catch my breath

   People give the credit

   Where the credit isn’t due

   I wonder every time I play

   How much of me is you


   You made it people say

   I wish that I was you

   I wink and grin but I don’t think

   They know just what I do

   Cuz there are thorns on these roses

   Of celebrity and fame

   There is something slightly off

   But I don’t know it’s name


   I’m standing on a stage now

   To leave it would be death

   Excited in this life I lead

   And I’m loving every breath

   People give the credit

   Where the credit isn’t due

   Still I wonder every time I play

   How much of me is you


   Now I understand

   Things that made

   No sense

   That life is gone

   I’ve no pretense

   That what you did

   Was wrong


   I’m on a different stage now

   My life might be a mess

   But I’m seeing where all this might lead

   And I know that I’m not less

   People give the credit

   And you’re not a part of what I do

   Still I wonder every time I play

   How much of me is you

   Still I wonder every single day

   How much of me is you

   Still I wonder every time I play

   How much of me is you

5 – How Much of Me is You – Audio

4 – What Life’s About – Lyrics

The bigger picture

Fading slowly out of sight – yeah

The simple structure

Giving way to crazy life – yeah


When it seems like all that’s left is a lie

And tomorrow is the day that we die

Keep the truth

Keep the faith

And look to the sky


Baby don’t give in

To doubt

You can believe it

Do without

You didn’t need it

Never let your light so shine

Go out

Cuz this is what life’s about

Hey – hey – uh-oh


Keeping focus

Give up everything within – yeah

I think you noticed

Just how hard it is to win – yeah


When it feels like things are out of control

You just got to keep your eyes on the goal

With your heart

With your mind

With your soul



It’s not a stupid story or a random name

It’s not about the glory or the fortune and fame

Open up your mind to the powers that be

Cuz there’s so much more to life than you and me


4 – What Life’s About – Audio

3 – Speak My Mind – Lyrics


This will probably stay locked away

And only come out on a rainy day

Cuz I will probably go and never show

Everything little thing I want you to know


If I speak my mind

Will you take the time

Will you try to find a way

If I take you there

Will you say you care

Will you understand and stay

There’s got to be more courage I can find

To speak my mind


I will stand alone even though

I’m dying inside to trust you so

But I am so afraid that once betrayed

There I’ll be once again hurt and played

Oh and I pray



Speak my mind


There’s got to be more, got to be more courage I can find (repeating)


There’s got to be more courage I can find

There’s got to be more courage I can find

To speak my mind

3 – Speak My Mind – Audio

2 – Paper Dolls – Lyrics


Look in my eyes

Look at my soul

I’m broken so – shattered the pieces fall

This is your fault

Look what you’ve done

Clearly I’m – nothing to you at all


The emptiness

The desert in your eyes

Is giving you away

Your promises

That I’m the only one

Are gone today


Cuz we’re nothing more to you

Than paper dolls you tear in two

Till there’s nothing left of who

We were before we fell into

Your nothing world

Of nothing girls

Where everybody knew

It’s what you do

Cuz we’re nothing more to you


Open your mind

Please try to see

Your shadow is – taking control of me

It’s not what I want

It’s not what I need

My heart longs to – sail on an open sea


My brokenness

Is nothing in your eyes

And it’s pushing you away

I promise this

It’s over and I’m done

It ends today



Than a good time

Like the last time – whoa

(I hear you say)

Oh you’ll be fine

Say you’ll mine – whoa

(Still you say)

Oh we’ll get by

Please don’t cry

We’ll find a way

I won’t stay


Cuz we’re nothing more to you

2 – Paper Dolls – Audio

1 – I Choose Life – Lyrics


   I know you heard

   Something happened in my past

   I never told you cuz

   You had never asked

   But that’s ok

   It’s gonna be alright

   I was young, innocent

   And I didn’t know

   And I’ve decided not to

   Let it keep me low

   So I’ll say

   I’m gonna be alright


   And ooh – oh baby

   It’s my choice and

   Ooh – it’s not maybe



   So now you know

   And I’m asking what you think

   So tell me baby

   Are we gonna swim or sink

   So I ask are

   You gonna leave tonight

   So tell me baby

   Will I get the chance to sing

   I need to know if you’re still

   Thinking ’bout that ring

   Cause I need you

   To hold me tight


   And ooh oh baby

   Cause I love you

   And ooh – It’s not a maybe


   Do you choose life

   And choose love

   And choose everything we’re dreaming of

   Don’t wanna fuss

   Or fight

   But I’ll do anything to make it right

   So say with me tonight

   I choose life


   I decided not to let it get me down

   And I decided I would turn my frown around

   So here’s the thing

   You can handle it with grace

   And if you’re happy

   Well please notify your face



I choose life

I choose love

So get up and get out

And go live your life

It’s on you – it’s on me

To go and make it right

I choose life

1 – I Choose Life – Audio

So, this is my top five list of favourite songs off of this album. Let e know what you think!! 🙂

Time to Relearn Myself

Those who have followed my blog for a while may or may not remember me speaking of my chronic pain issues. Well, hold on, this is a new kettle of fish, a kettle of fish I’m still wrapping my head around, and learning. I’ve had a period where I couldn’t walk for three months, but that only involved my left knee. Now, I can’t walk because my left knee, and my right hip have an issue.

So, for the very first time, I require someone to transfer me from any place to my chair. This is easy,  but hard to accept. mostly because I’ve seen me bounce back. I may, I may not, so I gotta be ok with where I’m at, and still live life. In hindsight, what I’m learning most during this hospital stay, I’m really learning where to not cross a potential painful and harmful line, just so I do something myself. I’m good at asking for help, but not always in this way.

They didn’t do much with me, besides see if I could walk, or transfer, but no. So, tomorrow is home day for me, and I will have a lift at home for the very first time. I’m getting forms s5artted here in hospital for funding for my own lift, as the lift that’ll be at home tomorrow is a rental. This, I can say is another Faithful First for me.

I’m going to take this as it comes, and along the way, ask eighty million questions, and figure out the same me, but some parts relearned. That’s  the key there. I’ll be posting pictures maybe soon, to let people into the world I live in. At the end of the day, I’m still faithful.

Welcome to the Generator World!

So… you probably wonder why this blog title, but considering the only reason I’m writing this blog is I’m where power is… power, as in generator… Who knew a tornado would touch down in the Ottawa and surrounding area? That’s just not really common… at all.

The tornado decided to come, and Ottawa and surrounding area couldn’t catch up to get power restored quick enough. Again… thank goodness for generators, where there are, anyway. I’m currently sitting at the college where generators are running to give the college power.

Literally taking this time to charge up my devices, which is a very smart thing to do. Hello, f3 tornado? What? Here? Ottawa? Excuse me while I faint. That never happens. I’m gonna praise generators until actual power returns. I can guarantee that. Oh yes. Welcome to the Generator World, Ottawa!!

I’m still rather stunned at this mess. Just… wow… as I have my mouth open in astonishment. The city’s power grid as well as the province’s power grid hasn’t been this messed up since the ice storm in 1998.

Clean up on aisle power, clean up on aisle power.

What a mess.

Let Me Introduce Myself!

This may be an odd title for those who have known me, or are getting to know me now. Trust me when I say I’m different, but in a very positive way. These changes would be best suited told by those who have seen. them happen, other than myself, but here it goes anyway.

I feel more confident about where I’m heading, than I’ve ever been before. I’m destined to finish up math, and either go straight into nursing, or do a year of health science to get more math first. The choices are endless, as I am currently going back to intermediate math class, as of this coming Monday. Yes, this coming Monday. I’m also giving, someone who was supposed to be my adoptive mother, Gillian, the death stare in doing this. I’m conquering this when she said I wouldn’t be able to. Oh, and I am also gonna get a resume together and start applying for part-time work, which she also prevented me to do. See? Two big changes right there.

I can definitely feel happier about going into school this time, knowing I am doing this for myself, and no one else. I’m grateful for who is supporting me in this, but if you aren’t, I’m still going to do so anyway. This has always been my dream. Now it’s time to make it my reality.

I’ve had three songs that always resinated with me, and until recently, I now realize how much, whereas I didn’t before. Not quite, anyway.

Good Enough – by Cimorelli

Your Way (Bonus Track) – by Love & the Outcome

It’s Your Life – by Francesca Battistelli

These three songs all have one thing in common, keeping going when the going gets tough. I learned that most definitely throughout this past year, and how the first two songs were definite stages of my life, but the third song speaks who who I am now, and that I’m taking my life back, because it’s my life. No one else can live this life the that I present. Only I can.

Thirst For Life

This title may be self explanatory to some people, and maybe not to others. Cimorelli created this song for their mission, when they went to Havana, Cuba as part of the Clean Water Fund, helping bring clean water to there, and other communities where they don’t have clean water. For those who wish to contribute, they created their fund called the Cimorelli: Clean Water Fund. Donate, if you are able.

Now for the song, here it is… lyrics first:

Thirst For Life – Lyrics

There is a river flowing out from the throne of God
And there stands a tree whose leaves are for the healing of the nation
All who draw near to our God see the compassion in his eyes
He says

Come to me all who are thirsty for living water
Come to me all who are thirsty for life
All who thirst for life
All who thirst for life
Come to me

There is a hope in our hearts as we join in your name
To serve side by side through your grace
And share this living water
Freely we sing, freely give
See in their eyes it is Jesus
He says

Come to me all who are thirsty for living water
Come to me all who are thirsty for life
All who thirst for life
All who thirst for life
Come to me

Come to me
Come to me

Oh, Jesus, you mean everything
We join as your heads at your feet
You are the living water that satisfies forever

Come to me all who are thirsty for living water
Come to me all who are thirsty for life
All who thirst for life
All who thirst for life

Come to me all who are thirsty for living water
Come to me all who are thirsty for life
All who thirst for life
All who thirst for life
All who thirst for life

Come to me

Ooh, come to me
Come to me, ooh

Thirst For Life – Song

Again, I post this to help Cimorelli.

Donate now… if you can!

Behold, Tactile Tapestry!

Yes, spread the word!! I’m finally doing paintings again, all thanks to my new routine. Since I had to withdraw from school again, due to ongoing medical issues, I thought to put painting in its place. Why?

Why not? Besides, A, the sooner I get paintings done, the sooner my Etsy shop can officially be open! B, it is also a great coping mechanism for what I’m going through medically, and the unknown that comes with it.

So, a great idea all in all, for all of you, as well as for me. Cheers to painting!

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