Random Thoughts Before a Very Busy Weekend Ahead!

It’s been interesting dealing with my new stage of knee, figuring out ways to do things differently than the way I normally do them. For example, as a lot of my blog readers know, I am a dancer. Now I am getting used to being a new dancer that has to adapt the things I normally can do, and normally wouldn’t hurt, but somehow now they do. An example of this is adapting how I do specific movements so those particular movements won’t kill me. Oh yes, the example… in the piece we are doing for Community Day, we have to pat our laps with our hands. Normally this gesture doesn’t hurt my left knee, but as of this past Monday’s class, that movement sends my left leg into spasms of pain until I stop doing that movement… very different from before. Maybe that will be my new norm that I will have to get used to… hope not.

This weekend I have a busy weekend coming up full of performances for The Nutcracker. Tonight I am getting showered so I am nice, clean, and presentable for tomorrow’s Dress Rehearsal. In one way, I’ll be sad to let this play go, but in another, I will not miss it. Rehearsals take up time, and energy. Some of that same time and energy I spend dealing with pain, but this is obviously much more fun. I honestly wish that my spring dance show was more than just one night. Each time you get to perform something, you get to perfect it more. Those are the key points as to why I like having more than one performance.

It’s sad to say that this blog is done

Return another day for lots more writing fun.

I can already tell I’m into my role. Hello rhyming! 😀

Nutcracker Performances This Weekend! Yeah!

It’s getting closer… so much closer! I can feel it, the fact that I am Minstrel Sweet, breathing in my character, exhaling all the crap I am currently stressed about. Minstrel in, stress out. That’s harder than you think!

Besides the fact that I can’t use my crutches for my chaacter now, I have to use the wheelchair, all thanks to my present stage of knee. Maybe stil it is hard to grasp the possibility of me being a wheely for an unknown period of time. That;s besides the point, I am still excited regardless!

Getting organized, bit by bit. I am having adjustments made to my costume,  It has green, brown, white and some purple. It’s awesome! It even has a hat with it… I dislike hats, but I love this one!

Keep in mind, however, this hat will most likely have to be bobby pinned, to make sure  it doesn’t move around. Tonight begins the days ahead of rehearsals, and then showtime!!! I, for once in my life, love my character! She, Minstrel Sweet is almost me, to a tee!

This blog is done, and it was such fun. 🙂 Where’s my partner  in crime, Maestro Sweet? He’d say something like, to write it for all you folk. 🙂

All right, I must stop this… at once!!!

Lips are Moving – Comparison Time!!

I am well overdue for a Cimorelli cover to original comparison, and commentary. So, I decided I will write a comparison on Cimorelli’s latest cover called Lips are Moving by Meghan Trainor. Let me know what you think of this comparison.

Lips are Moving – Original

My first thought is obviously the original doesn’t have extra stuff that doesn’t necessarily have to be there. It’s from Meghan Trainor’s Vevo, so it is her official video!

Lips are Moving – Cimorelli Cover

This cover is well done, well, I wouldn’t say anything else of them, since I am a fan of Cimorelli, but they don’t need extra stuff to make a point. The song does it just fine on its own.

Tell me what you like better in the comments section if you wish!

Home Again… Still no Signs of Improvement

First off, I must embrace, not reject. Even though I am now at home, and using my sister’s bed to sleep on when I need to, no sign of improvement on this whole leg straightening thing. Although, when I don’t forcefully try and bend, it will bend sometimes on its own when I am lying down now. So, I’m trying to lie down a bit each day to receive my knee pain a little. Plus, I just feel more tired due to my upper body being relied on more.

Still… this frustration of not being able to put on my left boot continues… that’s the annoying part, I think. I don’t normally like to use para, unless I have to. Since I can’t put my left boot on, I’ve been left with no choice but to use para. That is, unless I don’t wake up in time to book for the next day’s travel… just like I did by accident this morning, I only ended up waking up at 10am to Steven coming to check on me, and to also tell me I had an hour to get ready to go to the Rideau Centre today, but I knew I wouldn’t be up in time, considering Steven woke me up from a daze.

So, here I sit while everyone is gone out, and I somehow just wish my knee would cooperate and let me go out too! That’s all, but I guess I can fit myself with some piece of good, there are people who could be bedridden because of their pain, but I obviously still find this new stage of my knee a bit frustrating.

I believe, however, that I should see if there is a support group with people who may have CRPS, and if there isn’t, I should start one. That’s the positive approach I will give to this, making as many people who have CRPS comfortable with their own selves as they possibly can.


Hospital? Again? Hello New Stage of Knee… why?

 Written on November 18, 2014

 Friday night equaled to games night with honourary family Game ended, just about to head to my room for the night, then my lovely knee decided it was gonna lock on me as I was trying to stand with my crutches.

 Now, I had seen this go straight thing before, but my sister hadn’t. The only difference between this time, and two years ago is that my knee had this throbbing/burning sensation. That was what made me give the go ahead to call 911.

 During the wait, I showed another sign that I’d never witnessed before. I was feeling rather spaced out, as if to say the pain was too much, and my body tried to relieve itself by me spacing out.

 The ambulance arrived… finally! After doing their work up of me, they send me to the Civic Campus of the Ottawa Hospital, because that’s where I got my work up done last time, or most of it, anyway.

Let’s take a flashback here, back into two years ago at the rehabilitation Ceentre… after having a needle stuck in my knee, and a hip X Ray done, the doctor told me how it was. There was the possibility that I would not walk again. Until now, that has changed.

Firstly, the nurse was gonna try and put me in a wheelchair and go through urgent care, but I told one of the paramedics that I can’t bend my left knee, and I can’t transfer with only one good leg. So, I eventually went to an off-loading area, which proceded to an observation room.

Now here comes the interesting part…

I forgot to mention that the ER doctor wanted an X Ray of my knee… it obviously showed nothing, so the ER doctor approached the Medicine team… the first doctor I spoke to understood what I was saying, more than what I thought the second doctor did. By this point, however, I guess Steven really showed how much he loved me, by holding eight years worth of tears for when I was waiting in the off-loading area… I still, and will probably always say when he cries, poor guy. I felt so bad having to leave him for an X Ray, let alone anything else.

This, I suppose brings me to the doctor whom I thought didn’t understand me, but was checking for signs and symptoms of CRPSi(Complex Regional Pain Syndrome.)

So, here I go into another hospital stay thinking no one understood me, when in actual fact, they kinda were. Although, it wasn’t until the Med Student who was on my Medicine Team showed, and read to me the article that she found about CRPS.

Two years prior, when I was being seen as an Inpatient by Dr. Wolf, my friend Michelle was at the rehab centre for something of her own. She ended up spotting me in the cafeteria, and came to talk for awhile. Interestingly enough, she paid attention to my frustration that went on facebook and I even think twitter saw it too! She was the first to tell me that she has CRPS, and she thinks I may have it as well

Turns out, two years later, after probably reading my MRI scans from 2012, plus probably the hip X Ray, as well as both of the times they took an X Ray of my left knee, and both times it obviously showed no difference.

How on earth do I deal with CRPS? I gotta become super aware of how CRPS affects me in regards to its symptoms. As discovered by my sister, and whoever else saw the article on SPD(Sensory Processing Disorder.) I honestly believe, and will represent both of these with confidence! What other choice do I have? Not much. Gotta just grin and bear the changes that have, and could occur in the future.